Monday, December 6, 2010

365 Days, Day 182

A woman continues to do her duty, to carry out the obligations of her life from day to day while putting off her own inner desires so successfully that in time she no longer hears the inner voice that says that she would rather dance or dream or build bridges or wander through the woods. When a woman has ignored her soul voice for long enough it can grow very small, so small that it takes a lot of patience and stillness to make out the words that are being whispered (Leslie Kenton Passage to Power)

Life will give you whatever experience is most helpful for the evolution of your consciousness.
How do you know this is the experience you need?

Because this is the experience you are having at the moment.

Eckhart Tolle)

I am small and quiet. I have ignored my soul voice for too long. I cannot make out the whispers…

I am struggling with who I am at the moment. I have not adjusted to not being “Mom”. This was a major part of my identity. I am still Mom to AriĆ©l, but the dynamics have been altered, especially after gaining awareness that I needed to adjust the mother-friend role to mother-in-the-wings. Sometimes our well-meaning behaviour is perceived and experienced in a way that we did not intend.

I am on this journey at present, because I need to rethink, and reinvent myself. There is wisdom that is whispering from within, that is calling me. I understand that I need to be patient, that what I am experiencing at the moment is part of the evolution of my soul. But it is frustrating at times, and a very lonely path. I strain to hear the whispers…

1 comment:

  1. You are not alone DD - I am with you every step of the way. I think you took that awareness too far, why should you be a mother in the wings if Ariel wants a mother friend. Should she not be asked what she wants from you ??? You need a painting or journal day - something to exersise that soul of yours, anytime you want to chat over a late or hot choc - just text, thinking of you xxx